I'm back...

Was I ever here.... I just read my first and last post on this blog and was a little blown away by the fact that it was written almost 2 years ago... I'm not quite sure what has happened in these last two years. It's felt like a re-inventing of myself, or actually, maybe more accurately, a peeling back of more layers to discover more of who I actually am. And this process left me feeling raw. I have felt the need and desire to draw back. I've nested in my beautiful home and spent time with those closest to me. I can feel this process is not fully over (is it ever?) but there is a deep calling starting to urge me back the surface.

Baby steps. Last night my mind was reeling with ideas and thoughts and I knew I could no longer just hold them in. Being an introvert sometimes makes it hard for me to come out from under my comfortable moss covered rock. Being a people pleaser makes it even more confronting to type out me thoughts for anyone to read. What if I insult someone?! And being a recovering prefectionist makes it challenging for me to write these posts without overthinking and second guessing.

But I am also a rebel, and I don't shy away from challenging myself to grow. So, take two, lets go.

I'm not going to lie. It's been a full on start to the year. I know I'm not the only one feeling this. Globally, collectivity and individually. 2020 is a year of change, upheaval, evolution.

It is also a year where we can make a choice. What are we going to subscribe to? Are we going to use the tools, resources, knowledge, technologies that we have to get us through. To heal ourselves and the to heal the world.

We know now (hopefully) that we are a small part of a larger collective. We are a cell part of a larger organism. We need to heal ourselves to heal the whole. This is not going to happen if we subscribe to the fear, the hyped up sensationalism of the media etc.

I'm not trying to take away from the tragedies that have happened this month but I am saying you have a choice what kind of energy you give to them. Are you getting swept along in the tidal wave of despair or are you using that energy and clarity of what is important, what it is highlighting for you, to make changes, to take action.

We are not victims. We have so many tools, technologies and the power of the collective to turn this ship around. If you do stay tuned into the mainstream media (that's including social media with its allogrithms) use a filter and a little common sense. Bad news sellls. Making you feel powerless, makes you spend money. When you let all that in you spread more of it around. What are you allowing into your reality?

I truly belive that all humans have an essence of goodness, of love. Tap into that. And spread that. Is it really easier to spread fear, anger and blame than love, acceptance and kindness?!? Come on.... We need you. All of us.

If you are hurting, know that there are so many tools, resources, people who can help. You are not alone! It takes courage to say enough is enough, to change the status quo, to be honest about where you are at, to start on your healing journey, whatever that looks like. Find what works for you and then do it ❤️

Over the next few posts I'm going to be sharing what works for me. This isn't meant to be a steps to success post series - what works for some people, doesn't for others. But if you do find something that works I think it is important to keep doing it (untill it no longer serves you of course, then find the next thing...but that's another post). That's where so many people, me inlcuded, go wrong. They do it once or twice. It makes them feel good, then they forget, or feel they don't have time and spiral back into their ususal patterns. I'm hoping these next few blog posts will keep us, that's again including me, continuing to make and practice those positive changes for the better, whatever they are.

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